I went from 246.3 lbs to 245.7 lbs. I was bummed. I had hoped for 2 pounds per week to come off. My friends were all very supportive and I understand that it is progress and it will take time. I also understand that it is just a number on a scale and the fact that I feel better should trump everything else.
But, to me, it is not just a number on a scale. If I was down to a "normal" weight, it wouldn't bother me so much. Even if I am building up some muscle (which I am not convinced of,) I am still SIGNIFICANTLY overweight. I have plenty of weight to lose and it just decides to hang on!
I have failed so many times that, for a moment, I began to think that I couldn't do this. I couldn't keep getting up at 5:45am to work out before work (I know this isn't early to most, but I work 10am-6:30pm, with nearly an hour commute, so this is early for me!) I couldn't keep eating the right things and avoiding the things that I know are not good for me. All I wanted to do was quit and chow down on some pizza and chocolate! But, I didn't. I vowed to keep going, even when things didn't go the way that I had hoped. Maybe I just needed to work harder. Maybe my body is just not wanting to let anything go. Maybe it just needed some more time.
So, I went about my week and I did everything that I was supposed to, except swim on Tuesday because the pool was closed. :-(
I had a hectic week at work with the first full week of school and the first week that I closed the school three nights. It made for some long days, but I still felt good.
This weekend I had the sons of my two best friends, Karen and Hadassah, at my house to hang out and spend the night. Those ladies mean the world to me and have always been in my corner since I met them 8 years ago...wow, I am getting old! I have loved their boys since they were born. Karen has two boys: Devin who is 7 and in the 2nd grade and Lucas who will be 3 in November. Hadassah has one son, Isayah, who is 6 and in the 1st grade. They came over on Saturday and we played outside, watched Star Wars, and went to church on Sunday. I love spending time with them and I normally do it more over the summer, but I had to heal before I could. I hope to have them over again in September so we can watch the next movie, The Empire Strikes Back.
This coming week is going to get even busier for me because I start school myself on Wednesday. After a long time out of school and many years of trying to figure out what I want to be when I grow up, I am finally going back. My car accident shook up my whole world and I vowed to make my life a better one. One part of that is my weight and my health. Another part is finishing school and getting a degree. I am taking 3 classes and a lab, as well as working full time...two classes are online and one class and the lab are at night. That makes eating healthy a bit harder.
I eat 5 times a day and each meal is relatively the same size with the same components. I eat my first breakfast at home and take my next breakfast and my two lunches with me to work. I come back home after work and eat my only dinner. Now, on Tuesdays and Wednesdays, I will also have to pack my dinner with me to eat school when I get there. It also eliminates two nights a week that I can cook and get ahead during the week. So I decided that I needed to cook on Sunday for the whole week. I didn't realize how much food that would be until I started planning out my shopping and cooking list! I have just finished cooking and I cooked the following:
5 chicken breast
4 cod fillets
4 salmon fillets
2.5 lbs Brussels sprouts (12 servings...got a little carried away!)
8 servings of jasmine rice
8 servings of basmati rice
8 servings of quinoa
~6 servings of broccoli
~6 servings of cauliflower
~6 servings of sweet potatoes
rinsed 2 lbs of spinach
cut 2-3 servings of cucumbers
cut 3 green bell peppers
This doesn't include the egg whites that I eat every morning for breakfast. I am hoping that it is enough to get me through the whole week without having to cook again until the weekend and I am praying it all fits in the fridge!
Now that I am done with all of that, I can relax for a bit and then hit the bed early, after a very late night last night. This week will be busy, but I know that I can do this. At church today, PK talked about what if God was whispering to you to give it another try. It could be in any area of your life, but what if He was telling you to try it one more time. This hit me today as I am giving many things another try that I have failed at before. It was what I needed to hear today and I am finally on the right track. I am doing things the right way with God in the lead and I am trusting in Him to give it another try. Check it out at www.12stone.com/watch and look for this weeks message on Peter.
For more info on getting back into exercise or looking for encouragement and a team to cheer you on, check out www.enduredgirl.com #bebravebebadass #operationcarynssmiles #neverquit
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